Adjusting

I still have not gotten the hang of settling things on my own here.

I am still trying to adjust to being alone. Siew has always been such a fixture in my life, I tried not to take her for granted, but I still managed to do so. Now that she is in Penang I am having a hard time of things, but I am getting adjusted, slowly.

For example:

Sleeping alone is really strange. I tend to roll all over the bed. I have not rolled around so much since I was in Kentucky, where, even with Siew, I would wake up in some very strange positions. Usually ending up on the floor with a small part of my body on the bed.

Lunch. Siew always prepares my lunch for me to take to work. Recenly I have been eating quite poorly because I do not have time to settle lunch before going to work.

Dinner. Again, Siew usually prepares dinner. This makes it easier for me to come home, eat, relax and spend time with her. Now that I have to prepare everything for my own dinner I have been leaning towards laziness.

Depressed. I feel a bit depressed sometimes. That is normal for me. But, I feel like I am much more easily depressed when she is not here.

Hopefully the baby comes out on the expected due date! I am taking some time off during that duration so that I can TRY to be there when she has to deliver the baby. I would really hate it if I can not be there when that happens.